The Randomness of Random pt 19

Power is a privilege not to be abused. Have you ever sat back and considered in a logical/hypothetical way... What would i do if i could do anything... ? I thot abt that but abt what would anyone would do, today. I wondered abt this because we have so many rules now abt HIPPA now and privacy acts, that you have to be very discerning with employees these days bc most ppl, in Memphis, don't have firm morals or values. Most ppl will break laws or vows if it will benefit them in some microscopic way.... It's sad.

This did, however, led me to deeper insight... and I guess that's why Jesus was the only one able to be trusted w miraculous powers such as being all knowing and all controlling for this matter. Bc He wouldn't abuse the privilege, He's the only superhero that is infallible.

Deep thought....

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The Randomness of Random pt 18

If any of you had any idea how many random thoughts i come across in one day, it quite possibly might blow your mind.

Today, it hit me that one day, i quite possibly will lose my grandma one day. The lady that i have looked up to my entire life. The only person in my entire family that rarely fails me, that never stopped believing in me, that has supported me without question since the day i was known about.... just THINKING about if ever she isn't here made me develop tears while sitting in my desk at work. I know she doesn't want to read this but. i could never fathom a day that she doesn't know how much i love her....

I know there are so many of you out there with amazing families who are so tightly knit that you all live on the same block practically and do everything together and blah blah... but as the proverbial they says... to be loved by one person in your lifetime, you shall call yourself blessed. I am more than blessed....

AND... she's a Facebook pro and one hell of a poker player... how many of you have Meme's who can sit and have a drink with you and kick your butt in poker and take all your money!? (that's why i always ask her to borrow $5 before we play.... ;)

The Randomness of Random pt 17

Forgive me for the delay in posting... there are so many things that have happened over the summer that have and are changing my life. dramatically. It's been quite... exhausting.

So I know i've written about how much i drive and how i think when i drive and it's good time for me to rumble thru all the random thoughts in my head.... but one day i was driving (like a bat outta hades, as usual) and i saw an analogy about relationships with driving... how they're so similar. When you are driving there's a method to getting thru traffic. sometimes you can go in and get straight thru, no problem, no hold ups, you just zoom zoom zoom thru... everything falls into the right place and you break thru the crowd and you get on the road with nothing on either side of you. it's just there... you... alone... cruising! and those drives are great. no huge bumps, easy-peasy, but sometimes you have road blocks and big huge trucks in the way and you have to start using your head and thinking thru what you are going to do and plan ahead and work your magic to get thru it. And BE PATIENT!! (that's a 4 letter word for me...)

Just like anything that we do, you have to know how to act and you have to think about the things you do in order to get the desired outcomes you want.

Anticipate your next steps.
Stay on the road and keep yourself and other drivers safe.
Pass on the inside when you need to but be aware it can bite u big time in a curve.

My car.... :)

The randomness of random pt 16

What I wouldn't give to be a barfly on the wall sometimes. I understand some of my most interesting verbal conversations have happened in a restaurant or establishment of some sort... And it makes me think, as much as I live people watching.... Imagine the plethora of entertainment I could have if I was able to quietly observe while not being able to interrupt. I could learn soooooooo much abt ppl. I could see my friends in their most true forms. I could learn the most interesting facts abt ppl... It would be surreal.

But w great power comes great responsibility. I'd have to ask how much could I really take then... ? I already know so much abt my friends that I'm not sure I would be able to handle that level of knowledge of others, I fear it would skew my opinions... And I know it would for some of them...

I think I'll stay w what I got. Just being able to do this is actually enuf for right now. :)

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The randomness of random pt 15

"All human situations have their inconveniences. We feel those of the present but neither see nor feel those of the future; and hence we often make troublesome changes without amendment, and frequently for the worse." - Benjamin Franklin

I know it's been a month since I've posted. But this has GOT to be the most mortally frightening month I've ever had.

The theme for my weekend a month ago today was "party to forget mortality". Dealing w the fact my mom was looking face to face w cancer was devistating for me, as I realized later, and just not knowing if or what or anything was the hardest part. At least if u know for sure u can get a plan of attack. U can call in the troops and forge an attack on whatever ur dealin w and be done w it!!! Kick cancer's arse in a way it's never seen. But that weekend of not knowing what she had tore me up. And while we do not know for sure what it is now, her second opinion dr was very reassuring that if he thot it was cancer he would treat it asap. So. This last month I have kinda... Neutralized myself. I think for the week after that I was in a very dark place for abt 10 days straight. God just gently brought me back up. Lovingly I might add... And I was normal again. Till this week.

Why must must mortality beat on my door now? Why must I have it shoved in my face over again that I am not invincible. I know my faith keeps me plugged in saying "if it's my time, so be it." but man. Having to read up abt symptoms and causes an potential issues can totally kill ur spirit if u let it.

Remain focused on the fact God is the truth and has the final say. Diagnoses come and go and are wrong 1/2 the time. No one and no thing except what is real and true can replace it. All this speculation makes me so darn mad an scared at the same time. But I will again party to forget mortality this weekend.

Me and my peeps. :) Shannan n Bjarni. Amazing music fest weekend!



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The randomness of random pt 14

"The hardest thing in life to learn is which bridge to cross and which to burn" - David Russell

This is a random quote I found on google today. (which I love, btw...) but omg. How true is it!!??? And how perfect it is for my life right now!!! It's just so nice that God never ceases to amaze me. I love His gentle way of speaking to me and even His gentle way of knocking me in the head and getting me to turn around and reflect and be like wtc was I thinking!! Haha!! He teaches me and makes me see the big picture... It's rather comforting... That I can find this quote in a random place... And know it was there for me, to teach and show me just how much He actually is thinking of me! Awesome, huh!?

Anyhoo... So yeah. Which one to cross, which one to burn. I got a few that I need to just torch and sit back w a beer and watch them go up in smoke. And I got some I know I'm yet to find. I know I also have some that I even at this have no actual clue jus how big and huge and beautiful they really are yet!! It's so cool. And exciting. And profound. :)

I love my analysis. I love my kids. I love my friends. I love my life!!!!!

Peabody rooftop parties are totally the coolest thing ever!!!! I love them!!!! And I LOVE Q107.5 for hookin me up totally w VIP passes!!! Maney, Riley, Alexis and Brodee rule!!!!!!!!






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The randomness of random pt 13

So. I love to drive fast. I could totally have been a really awesome chick racecar driver!!! And maybe a cute one, too! I love to get on open stretches of road and just gas it and go sooooooo fast that I even get scared!! I just wanna drive, ... Open lanes... No limits... Just go till I can't go anymore!!!! I love driving!! Guess it's a good thing since I drive so much when I have the girls (1.5 hrs in the am and pm) but... I really do just love the need for speed!!! :) woot!!

Anyone else drive as much as me?????

Jilly!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Seize the day: A life of why not?

I was in church a couple of weeks ago and the pastor was talking about 'what would you do if you had only one month to live' and that got me to thinking... A lot. And one of my day-dreamy thots centered around him covering the part abt needing to "Live a life of why not".

As we all know, this can be interupted in a good way and a not so good way. I'm going to skip for not the not so good way and focus on the good. So... Why not lead a life saying "why not" instead of trying to justify the "why"!??! You want to take your family on a trip... Why not. Want to go see your mom more... Why not? Want to buy your kids something ungodly expensive... Why not? Now of course your answer may be bc you physically cannot do it but that's another story. But... Wanna ride on a motorcycle... You want to open your heart to someone but are scared... WHY NOT!? You and your spouse want to have a baby... Why not?

Take some chances... Live 'dangerously' (yet safely). Have no regrets. Don't be saying in 10 years, I wish I would have blah blah blah... Or if I had that chance again... Take the chances now!! Live like there really might not be a tomorrow, according to the guidelines, morals, principles you so choose. But don't constrict yourself to a life of regret and disappointment because you think you can't or are not ready. You'll never be ready!!! Just do it!!! You will NOT have the chances and opprotunities later that you have now! Life will not wait around for you till you think-you-might-could-maybe-thinking-about-wanting-to-somehow-someday be ready!

Get to living!!! Get to loving!! Get to loving your life. God doesn't want to hear from you I wish I woulda _____...

Seize the day.

Here's a moment where I took my chances... In NOLA. Who dat!!??



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The randomness of random pt 12

If everyone is on a God-designed path for a specific purpose, and everyone is in the right place and right time for a reason that really only God knows, you ever wonder who the next person you're gonna meet is?

When I was a kid, totally believing this as I do now, I used to think that maybe one day, if I smile at someone in passing, just maybe I can help them by being nice, just with taking time to try to give them a moment of pleasantness, maybe I can impart a glimpse of peace and joy into their life by just taking the almost little to no effort of smiling. For just a second.... Maybe I was naive to think that could actually ever happen, maybe it actually did happen, but I never saw the point in not doing it... So it was a "why not" type-a-thing. What harm could I do? Right?

Well, I see, now, in my more realistic and jaded points of view how it can actually do more harm than good, but that's only w people who intend me harm and not good. But for the average-Joe, I think it really could work one day, not that I'll ever really know. But I have to believe that God really can and does use everything for good. And we really can change someone's life just by smiling at them especially when they least expect it. You don't know what kind of day they've had or what they're going thru. Who know's... You could just be the light at the end of the tunnel.

There's my impartation for the day! Take it for what it's worth. (which I think this is more than most.)

Just a picture than has a lot of meaning for me and is somewhat special in how I can affect another person.












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With this or that?

Have you ever wondered why things happen the certain way in which they do? Like... Knowing that God is all knowing and has a purpose for every little thing, don't you really wonder sometimes what exactly it is for? I have been wondering about some stuff lately... What's it all mean? What will happen with this or that? How does it all end?

I'm just... I could just be so excited or into things and of course I'm hesitant and reserved bc... You really don't ever know how you should feel, you don't know what will happen. People can totally fool you or bamboozle you with their intentions!! You never know what will happen with this or that.... And you just don't know if it's worth the risk.

Is it ever worth the risk... What do you choose... This or that...

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The randomness of random pt 11

Do any of you have a # that is just YOUR #. You may like it a whole bunch or it may just be your lucky # or it may just e one that you tend to see in a lot of places?

Since this is my 11th edition of "The Randomness of Random" I will honor it by telling you all that 11 is my #. It's kinda my 'thing'. You know, I don't care how saine you appear to be, EVERYONE has a bit of crazy in them somewhere. I guess this could be considered one of my qwerks. I see this # everywhere. All the time. In all different kids of places and it seems to have a lot of meaning, too.

I would tho be interested in knowing if anyone else out there has the same thing w #s. Feel free to share!!!

I'm attaching a pic from on of my good friends' performances... Enjoy!






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