Every time i hear Pink Floyd's 'Wish You Were Here', oh how it evokes the deepest feelings that i think are buried deep down in the pit of my stomach that I won't see for a very very long time...
It makes me sad and nostalgic and just so uber openly contemplative. i get this sense of open mindedness, like i'm drifting, hovering, looking at my life from the big open perspective in the sky. it's almost a supernatural experience, but so not......
Anyhoo. I love this song. it's one of my all time favorite songs... EVER.
I have to say, as well.... It's so much better to have the big picture perspective of your life rather than a short termed tunnel vision setting. i feel... safer. I have a drive and ambition and persistance... It's amaznig secure to know that where i am now isn't where I'm gonna be. And it enables me to make better decisions. I thank God that He gave me the ability to look beyond the right now into the 'what will be'. I now need to get rid of the procrastination part of me and get to moving to that part of 'what will be'!!!! I'm so happy about the decisions I've made lately.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 23
This is just a reminder for all you who are passionate and thrive on self improvement...
Remember that when God tells you 'no' about something, it's not always a bad thing. I have to remember when I get that sense of rejection that it's not necessarily a personal thing... Sometimes it's God shielding us from unnecessary hurt, pain, trauma/drama, or something worse... Sometimes the 'no' is a protective maneuver from the Big Man above.
Don't take rejection personal. "It's not you, it's me..." Sometimes it really isn't you.... but then again... sometimes it is. Learn to discern the difference. Change those things about you that you don't like. Improve on the things you do. And Pray to know how to recognize the difference.
Much Love!!!
Remember that when God tells you 'no' about something, it's not always a bad thing. I have to remember when I get that sense of rejection that it's not necessarily a personal thing... Sometimes it's God shielding us from unnecessary hurt, pain, trauma/drama, or something worse... Sometimes the 'no' is a protective maneuver from the Big Man above.
Don't take rejection personal. "It's not you, it's me..." Sometimes it really isn't you.... but then again... sometimes it is. Learn to discern the difference. Change those things about you that you don't like. Improve on the things you do. And Pray to know how to recognize the difference.
Much Love!!!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
The Randomness of Random Pt. 22
why do we want what we want when we want it?
Do you ever ponder the mechanics of interestingness? What makes you interested in something and then, to go even further in it, what keeps you interested in something? Its like... fire. who's NOT interested in fire? We see fire and we stare at it most times, providing not a house fire and no lives are at stake, we could easily just stare into flames, into what it is, the colors, the embers.... then we like to play with it. we know it could hurt us if we let it... we know it can be dangerous, but we do it still the same, none the less, without even caring. but why? why are we so interested in something that can be dangerous and hurt us?
Do you see a great analogy here? do you see a correlation here to why we even go into a relationship, with anyone... with our friends. trusting our family. falling in love... why??? they're all dangerous, or present a possibility for it. they're all carrying a probability of being hurt in some way at some point in time. but we do it without question usually. why are we interested in developing relationship? why are we interested in certain ppl and not in others? why.... great questions you all ask...
In order to understand our own interestingness, you must in turn come to an understanding with yourself and be ok with the 'self realization' you will have when you discover the things you do and don't like. and you have to be OK with what you see... this self discovery is crucial to the understanding phase of why we do what we do and why we want what we want. do you know this is probably one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do.... Being honest with yourself and accepting that it's truth. But once you can do this, you can become the person you want to be. you can change what you don't like about yourself and you can be a happier person.
Do you ever ponder the mechanics of interestingness? What makes you interested in something and then, to go even further in it, what keeps you interested in something? Its like... fire. who's NOT interested in fire? We see fire and we stare at it most times, providing not a house fire and no lives are at stake, we could easily just stare into flames, into what it is, the colors, the embers.... then we like to play with it. we know it could hurt us if we let it... we know it can be dangerous, but we do it still the same, none the less, without even caring. but why? why are we so interested in something that can be dangerous and hurt us?
Do you see a great analogy here? do you see a correlation here to why we even go into a relationship, with anyone... with our friends. trusting our family. falling in love... why??? they're all dangerous, or present a possibility for it. they're all carrying a probability of being hurt in some way at some point in time. but we do it without question usually. why are we interested in developing relationship? why are we interested in certain ppl and not in others? why.... great questions you all ask...
In order to understand our own interestingness, you must in turn come to an understanding with yourself and be ok with the 'self realization' you will have when you discover the things you do and don't like. and you have to be OK with what you see... this self discovery is crucial to the understanding phase of why we do what we do and why we want what we want. do you know this is probably one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do.... Being honest with yourself and accepting that it's truth. But once you can do this, you can become the person you want to be. you can change what you don't like about yourself and you can be a happier person.
So... why do we like what we like? i find it usually comes to self preservation. why do i want it when i want it (usually now) because 'das how we roll....
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 21
Have you ever considered Scrabble to be a great analogy for life!?
If you have a smart phone or friends with someone who does, you may have heard the buzz over the last year about words with friends, an Internet based scrabble game you can play with random ppl or your own friends. I started playing this game earlier in the year, as i do often try to delay jumping on band waggons 'just because' until i see the benefits and costs of each situation. After beginning to play, however, i found it does become addictive, mostly bc i can be somewhat competitive... (i must get that from my mom for sure... ;)
So, I def can hold my own in this game... i do have a knack in finding combination words and i wondered why am i good at this game? Does it have any correlation on the way i view life? bc, think about it... scrabble is in essence a game of chance, if you play your tiles right. it's all about taking what you have and making the best of it. sometimes you win. sometimes you lose, but it FOR SURE is all about how you play the game. If you don't try to find the bonus plays, by making multiple words, you won't succeed. if you don't ride out those double word or double letter or triple play tiles you won't win. its all about looking at the big picture, strategizing, getting the biggest bang for your buck and hoping and praying the opponent doesn't try to hit you when you're down.
who thought Scrabble could be such an amazing analogy for life!!!!
before you play, take a step back and consider, is there another avenue that is going to take me farther? and are there any bonus plays i can get to make my move more successful? it's amazing how far we can go here.....
If you have a smart phone or friends with someone who does, you may have heard the buzz over the last year about words with friends, an Internet based scrabble game you can play with random ppl or your own friends. I started playing this game earlier in the year, as i do often try to delay jumping on band waggons 'just because' until i see the benefits and costs of each situation. After beginning to play, however, i found it does become addictive, mostly bc i can be somewhat competitive... (i must get that from my mom for sure... ;)
So, I def can hold my own in this game... i do have a knack in finding combination words and i wondered why am i good at this game? Does it have any correlation on the way i view life? bc, think about it... scrabble is in essence a game of chance, if you play your tiles right. it's all about taking what you have and making the best of it. sometimes you win. sometimes you lose, but it FOR SURE is all about how you play the game. If you don't try to find the bonus plays, by making multiple words, you won't succeed. if you don't ride out those double word or double letter or triple play tiles you won't win. its all about looking at the big picture, strategizing, getting the biggest bang for your buck and hoping and praying the opponent doesn't try to hit you when you're down.
who thought Scrabble could be such an amazing analogy for life!!!!
before you play, take a step back and consider, is there another avenue that is going to take me farther? and are there any bonus plays i can get to make my move more successful? it's amazing how far we can go here.....
Enjoy my beautiful people!!! PLAY SOME WORDS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNAN (Right)!
Monday, October 18, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 20
Is it always when you least expect things to happen that they do? So many things, good and bad, have happened lately and of course I’m not expecting them to happen at all! But alas they do… and it’s not always a bad deal. Sometimes the things you need are the thing that hurt the most… Like the song says from The Fray – All at once, ‘We’d never know what’s wrong without the pain. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same…’
That song means so much to me in 1000 different ways… I’m so the least from perfect. I see that all the time. I am 100% not the best ever. But one thing I know from experience… anytime I let go of something I want so much but know I need the like a hole in the head… I get something so much more amazing and wonderful from it!!!!! God, it’s amazing… saying that to say… you have to be mature enuf and have enuf faith to know when you do the very things that you know you need to, whether it be from God or whatever you believe, the blessing you have awaiting yourself is going to knock your socks off, babe… truly blow your mind.
“Momma, I’m coming home!”
That song means so much to me in 1000 different ways… I’m so the least from perfect. I see that all the time. I am 100% not the best ever. But one thing I know from experience… anytime I let go of something I want so much but know I need the like a hole in the head… I get something so much more amazing and wonderful from it!!!!! God, it’s amazing… saying that to say… you have to be mature enuf and have enuf faith to know when you do the very things that you know you need to, whether it be from God or whatever you believe, the blessing you have awaiting yourself is going to knock your socks off, babe… truly blow your mind.
“Momma, I’m coming home!”
Friday, October 15, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 19
Power is a privilege not to be abused. Have you ever sat back and considered in a logical/hypothetical way... What would i do if i could do anything... ? I thot abt that but abt what would anyone would do, today. I wondered abt this because we have so many rules now abt HIPPA now and privacy acts, that you have to be very discerning with employees these days bc most ppl, in Memphis, don't have firm morals or values. Most ppl will break laws or vows if it will benefit them in some microscopic way.... It's sad.
This did, however, led me to deeper insight... and I guess that's why Jesus was the only one able to be trusted w miraculous powers such as being all knowing and all controlling for this matter. Bc He wouldn't abuse the privilege, He's the only superhero that is infallible.
Deep thought....
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This did, however, led me to deeper insight... and I guess that's why Jesus was the only one able to be trusted w miraculous powers such as being all knowing and all controlling for this matter. Bc He wouldn't abuse the privilege, He's the only superhero that is infallible.
Deep thought....
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Monday, October 11, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 18
If any of you had any idea how many random thoughts i come across in one day, it quite possibly might blow your mind.
Today, it hit me that one day, i quite possibly will lose my grandma one day. The lady that i have looked up to my entire life. The only person in my entire family that rarely fails me, that never stopped believing in me, that has supported me without question since the day i was known about.... just THINKING about if ever she isn't here made me develop tears while sitting in my desk at work. I know she doesn't want to read this but. i could never fathom a day that she doesn't know how much i love her....
I know there are so many of you out there with amazing families who are so tightly knit that you all live on the same block practically and do everything together and blah blah... but as the proverbial they says... to be loved by one person in your lifetime, you shall call yourself blessed. I am more than blessed....
AND... she's a Facebook pro and one hell of a poker player... how many of you have Meme's who can sit and have a drink with you and kick your butt in poker and take all your money!? (that's why i always ask her to borrow $5 before we play.... ;)
Today, it hit me that one day, i quite possibly will lose my grandma one day. The lady that i have looked up to my entire life. The only person in my entire family that rarely fails me, that never stopped believing in me, that has supported me without question since the day i was known about.... just THINKING about if ever she isn't here made me develop tears while sitting in my desk at work. I know she doesn't want to read this but. i could never fathom a day that she doesn't know how much i love her....
I know there are so many of you out there with amazing families who are so tightly knit that you all live on the same block practically and do everything together and blah blah... but as the proverbial they says... to be loved by one person in your lifetime, you shall call yourself blessed. I am more than blessed....
Sunday, October 10, 2010
The Randomness of Random pt 17
Forgive me for the delay in posting... there are so many things that have happened over the summer that have and are changing my life. dramatically. It's been quite... exhausting.
So I know i've written about how much i drive and how i think when i drive and it's good time for me to rumble thru all the random thoughts in my head.... but one day i was driving (like a bat outta hades, as usual) and i saw an analogy about relationships with driving... how they're so similar. When you are driving there's a method to getting thru traffic. sometimes you can go in and get straight thru, no problem, no hold ups, you just zoom zoom zoom thru... everything falls into the right place and you break thru the crowd and you get on the road with nothing on either side of you. it's just there... you... alone... cruising! and those drives are great. no huge bumps, easy-peasy, but sometimes you have road blocks and big huge trucks in the way and you have to start using your head and thinking thru what you are going to do and plan ahead and work your magic to get thru it. And BE PATIENT!! (that's a 4 letter word for me...)
Just like anything that we do, you have to know how to act and you have to think about the things you do in order to get the desired outcomes you want.
Anticipate your next steps.
Stay on the road and keep yourself and other drivers safe.
Pass on the inside when you need to but be aware it can bite u big time in a curve.
My car.... :)
So I know i've written about how much i drive and how i think when i drive and it's good time for me to rumble thru all the random thoughts in my head.... but one day i was driving (like a bat outta hades, as usual) and i saw an analogy about relationships with driving... how they're so similar. When you are driving there's a method to getting thru traffic. sometimes you can go in and get straight thru, no problem, no hold ups, you just zoom zoom zoom thru... everything falls into the right place and you break thru the crowd and you get on the road with nothing on either side of you. it's just there... you... alone... cruising! and those drives are great. no huge bumps, easy-peasy, but sometimes you have road blocks and big huge trucks in the way and you have to start using your head and thinking thru what you are going to do and plan ahead and work your magic to get thru it. And BE PATIENT!! (that's a 4 letter word for me...)
Just like anything that we do, you have to know how to act and you have to think about the things you do in order to get the desired outcomes you want.
Anticipate your next steps.
Stay on the road and keep yourself and other drivers safe.
Pass on the inside when you need to but be aware it can bite u big time in a curve.
My car.... :)
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